tales of Suchita

I love auto rides and showers. There are no better places to contemplate life than here. Is it the journey or the flowing water that provides a conducive environment for thoughts to turn away from the hustle bustle of every day life?

A chance comment from MP – this is the last time you can say you’re in your 20s – and the subsequent realization that I’ll be changing boxes while filling standard forms led to the inevitable meltdown that I was turning old, I had no remarkable achievements to speak of and I’m still reliant on my parents to keep me alive.

But remember the auto ride? An errant thought, quite like the errant breeze Bombay city is suddenly blessed with during December-January, came and lodged itself in my head. Here I was moaning that I was so old, out of time, and yet there were so many things I was experiencing for the very first time – like the only thing I could think of cooking to feed myself while continuing to remain in the comfort bubble of laziness was Maggie.

Another random conversation with MP (yes she and I have many random conversations which mostly revolve around the things we have discovered about ourselves over the years since we don’t have things like romantic entanglements to bother us) made me realize I sucked at being a team lead because I had never done it before!

Put two and two together and it struck me that I shouldn’t be thinking about turning a certain age, of time running, of the manuscript that no one will publish – let’s steer clear of that last one – but worry about why I couldn’t be a better team lead!

*Cue laughter and tears…but mostly laughter*

It was such a brilliant idea – I am getting older and yet experiencing things for the very first time! Doesn’t that kind of make me as young as a baby? Don’t all my epiphanies force me to see the world in a whole new light thereby ensuring the world, me, my experiences are never the same but perennially new and thus timeless?

So yes I am going to go into the roaring (or whatever the adjective is) 30s with the belief that I am as young as a new born babe and the best of life is here, right now, and not in some mythical future that is tomorrow.

*mic drop*