tales of Suchita

When I saw you
I knew that you were the one
It was early, yes
This was our first meeting
But we’d been talking
And the feeling had been sneaking up on me
Seeing you only made it real.
Then you smiled at me
And my world shifted
As it realigned itself
With you in the picture.

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Your smile was the first thing I saw
And it did things to my inside
But I was cautious
I was already in this too much
And I didn’t want to jump
Before I knew I could swim.
We hugged and my resolve broke
I heard my friends saying let go
But my fear whispered to hold on
And so I did
Just happy to be here with you.

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We walked through lanes
Talked, danced, touched
And did things young people in love do.
The words were at the tip of my tongue
But I held myself back.
I could see you weren’t where I was
And it was okay
Because I’d wait…
I would wait, I thought suddenly
For you
For you to meet me halfway.

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My fear started to leave
The more time I spent with you
Having been burnt twice
It wasn’t easy to let go
And so I held on with my teeth
To my fear and need of self-preservation.
Your patience irritated me
Your besotted fool of a face soothed me
And the whisperings grew louder
It’s okay to trust, they said
It’s okay to let go.

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I couldn’t hold it in
So I told you
That I loved you.
Before I could tell you
You didn’t have to say it back
You gave me your smile
And that was gift enough.
I knew we’d be okay and that
You’d reach where I am in your time
So I focused on easing your fears
And showing you my love was real.

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We went our separate ways
The blue-coloured stone tucked in my pocket
Proof of your love
And a promise for our future.
I stared at it as I made my way home
Realizing, now without alarm,
That the fear was quiet
Letting go easy
Because I knew you’d catch me.
So I called you
To tell you I loved you too.

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Written as part of AtoZ. For more, check the Theme Reveal 2020 – 26 Letters of Love.