Identity

Identity

Matru is hiding behind a pillar, eyes shut tight. It’s a normal pillar in so far as pillars go. Except it’s riddled with bullet holes. If Matru’s heart wasn’t beating as fast as it is, they would have assumed they were playing a video game.

But they’re not.

They’re in a life-or-death race because they stole a diamond necklace. They know the story is cliche but that’s the first scenario their brain picked up from the endless video games they have played when Ramshackle closed the door behind them.

Matru, in their previous life, the life before meeting Ramshackle, was a car salesperson. They were good at their job. And they got a lot of tips. They weren’t in it for the soul so they managed to reach the highest echelon of what a car salesperson could reach: running a dealership.

A chance encounter with Camille, however, changes everything.


Matru is bored. It’s the fifth day and no one has walked into the dealership. They’re not worried, not yet, because they’re running on excess. But even that will run out in a fortnight and Matru has never been in such dire straits.

As soon as they’re done negotiating with God to send in a few customers in exchange for a discount when God is in need of a pair of wheels, a girl in a black coat, a black dress that ends on her thighs and boots that lace all the way up to her knees walks in. Her face is clear of makeup except for a slash of red lipstick, the only pop of colour in her ensemble. She doesn’t seem to be in any form of trouble. Had this been a video game, she could have been the mob boss’ squeeze.

She is a customer, as it turns out, here to pick up her car. Matru does not remember her; those long legs are hard to forget. So, they acquaint themself with her as they walk towards a silver sedan. The colour oddly suits Camille’s personality.

As she walks around the car, she says, “This is a gift to me. I have never bought something so expensive in my life!”

Matru smiles indulgently. They find it hilarious how twenty-somethings are convinced their life is nearly over just because they’re closing in on twenty-five.

Camille takes another round of the car, reaching out with a thumb to wipe away an oily fingerprint. “She’s a beaut. Too bad I’ll have her only for a day.”

“What do you mean?”

“I’ll be dead the day after,” she says nonchalantly.

“Oh,” says Matru and before they can scold themself for their curiosity, they add, “are you alright?”

Her entire body lights up as she says, “I’m quite well, thank you. I…shouldn’t say.”

And though Matru’s alarm bells are ringing and every instinct in their body tells them not to engage, they ask, “Since you’ll be dead soon, you can tell me.”

Before Camille drives away, she tells them about Ramshackle and the contract. When Matru does not react badly, she hands over Ramshackle’s visiting card. She herself had gotten it from a stranger at a bus stop. The card has an address on one side and Matru’s name on the other.


Though their ears are ringing with gunfire, when they open their eyes, they are greeted not by a sea of pillars but blankness, a three-dimensional space that is waiting for them to make up their mind before loading the software.

It hits them then with the force of a dog tackling them to the ground and slobbering all over them that there is no need to perform. They are in control, as Ramshackle has told them repeatedly.

The relief of that knowledge means Matru can wipe away the jewellery heist scene they had originally chosen and go with their real desire.

They’re twenty years old, fresh out of college. A gaming company that is now out of business but at the time was rolling in coins, wants to recruit them to test their games. The coins are crap, the job is hard but it is a step closer to their dream job. The only reason they don’t pick it up is fear. But here, in this white, blank, three-dimensional space, there is no need for fear.

The software loads. They see themself in front of a mirror. Matru’s not sure if the space is real, imagined, or if they have actually travelled back in time and are twenty years old again. It doesn’t matter much. They’re late for the first day of their job. So, they don their jeans and the comfiest sea-green sweater and get to work.


9 of 26 of an ongoing series The Dream Maker. You can read all posts here. Written as part of #BlogchatterA2Z.


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14 responses to “Identity”

  1. I love the back and forth of the story, a bit of Ramshackle’s story and a bit of Kilney’s

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    1. Thank you, to me its always interesting to explore different points of view 🙂

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  2. An intriguing blend of realism and surrealism. This chapter finally offers a glimpse into what happens behind the closed door. The names you’ve chosen are uniquely quirky and leave a lasting impression, just like the story itself!

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    1. Names I feel are my specialty 😀

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    Monidipa Dutta

    I love how you’ve blended reality with the surreal, especially with Matru’s transition from their past life to this new, almost game-like existence. The character’s internal conflict, paired with the high-stakes action, is gripping. Camille’s introduction adds a mysterious allure, and Matru’s decision to choose a different path in the blank space feels empowering. The seamless shift from one reality to another creates a fascinating tension. It’s a great mix of introspection and suspense!

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    1. Happy to hear this 🙂

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  4. Finally, we get a glimpse of how things work on the day of wish fulfilment.

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    1. I wasn’t sure about this chapter but you have given me validation that it was right of me to keep it. Thank you!

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  5. I am reading the story, closely. trying to decipher how you build it word by word. I am struggling with my anthology 😦 I am stuck at 900 words. I really wonder how you create this magic.

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    1. You’re very kind Harjeet. Thank you. I’m sure you’ll manage it. I have full faith in you 🙂

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  6. The most interesting bit about this chapter for me was that the client here is also a ‘they’
    Now I’m wondering if all these past cases are going to bundle up and lead to some consequences in the current one with Gimble
    Also, the name Matru has now had me humming ‘Matru ki Bijli Ka Mandola’ Sigh! That’s gonna last a whole day now

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    1. Hahaha I also kept singing that song while writing this.

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  7. Srivalli Rekha Avatar
    Srivalli Rekha

    The layers add stacking up! Ramshackle seems to have had a flourishing business.

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    1. Humans are notoriously bad at managing themselves so yes Ramshackle does good business 😀

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