I remember the day I first saw you
I was nine and you were timeless
Your beauty blinded me
Your fragrance filled my heart
And as you passed me by
Your eyes rested on my face
For just a moment
But that moment was enough
As I fell in love with you.
I wrote sonnets for you, my love
You, my guardian angel
Whose beauty was incomparable
Whose grace would be my salvation.
I wrote couplets for you, my love
Painting other women as you
No, not because I loved you less
But to protect your innocence
And deflect the judgment of others.
We met at a party next,
You did not notice me
But I saw you surrounded by your ladies
Made lovelier by being in your presence
Oh I would give up immortality
To be a part of your retinue.
I waited, hoping you’d look my way
If only for another chance
To look upon your beauty.
You did not look my way
And I was shattered.
Did you not know
How much I loved you?
How could you though
When none of my poems
Or letters made it to you?
So I appealed to the Goddess of Love
To help my message reach you.
That night the Goddess visited me.
In my dream, you were draped in
Your ethereal beauty
And me, a graceless cow
Bowed in front of you
As we did a merry dance.
I asked why you weren’t mine
And you, or the Goddess, through you
Said, “Because you do not see her.”
Not understanding the message,
I asked for an explanation
The scene changed
You were in the arms of a monster
As he fed you his heart
And unable to break free, you ate it whole.
You and the monster turned to me…
…it was I who was the monster
Forcing you to accept my love.
I woke with a start
The dream still swirling in my mind.
I reached for a paper and quill
And began to write a new song.
This song would be worthy of you
I’d call it everything but mine.
I’d tell the others how to court one
As graceful as you and to keep the hope
That one day, you would be mine.
My love for you consumed me
As I wrote line after line
Verse after verse trying to
Write something worthy of you.
But nothing I wrote
Could compare to you
Or encompass everything I felt
As you became the monster
And I the damsel.
It was only your death
That liberated me from my promise
And gave me the strength to write of you
That which had never been written before.
Now I could cast you as my angel
The one who by her grace
Brought me salvation.
Who came to me in my dream
And forgave all my transgressions.
This then is my ode to you
My love, my saviour,
You who brought me to earth
And gave me wings to fly to heaven.
You who introduced me to the Goddess
And in turn became my goddess herself.
I will forever be your humble servant
The one you showered with grace
And taught what it means to love.
Written as part of AtoZ. For more, check the Theme Reveal 2020 – 26 Letters of Love.
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