tales of Suchita

I have not been kind to you

I have not been kind to you
Yet you have supported all my whims

I have not been respectful of you
Yet you have always done your best by me

I have not taken care of you as you deserve
Yet you have striven to keep me safe

I have cursed and railed at you
I have hurt and angered you
I have distanced myself from you
Stating, quite definitively
That you are not mine
You don’t belong to me
My identity is not a function of you.

And yet…oh my sweet…
You have never abandoned me.
Only told me, eloquently,
How I could improve
Tips to reconnect
Signalling when something was not quite right
Loving, despite the hurt
Showing up, demanding I pay attention.

I am paying attention now
I hope I am not late
And we can still work something out.
I am going to be kinder,
I am going to listen more
All I ask is you give me this chance
To love you as you deserve.

Written as part of AtoZ. For more, check the Theme Reveal 2020 – 26 Letters of Love.

Suchita
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25 responses to “I have not been kind to you”

  1. Ira Mishra Avatar
    Ira Mishra

    Hope there was a second chance for an entry again…. Usually regret and change comes when all chances are over!!

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    1. Suchita Avatar
      Suchita

      I would like to be optimistic and say there is definitely a chance here 🙂

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  2. sundeepananthd Avatar
    sundeepananthd

    A beautiful story of mending love. Lovely poetry Suchita. I’ve missed reading your content in the past week. Hoping to read them all now.
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    1. Suchita Avatar
      Suchita

      Awe thanks Sundeep. You are very kind. Happy reading!

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        sundeepananthd

        😊

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  3. Unishta Avatar
    Unishta

    This really resonated with me …..

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    1. Suchita Avatar
      Suchita

      Glad to know that 🙂

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  4. Anagha Yatin Avatar
    Anagha Yatin

    Everyone deserves a 2nd chance. I hope the 2nd chance is not wasted.

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    1. Suchita Avatar
      Suchita

      2nd chances should always be grabbed with both hands 😀

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  5. mommytincture Avatar
    mommytincture

    I am not much of a poems person, but your all pieces tend to touch a cord within me and stir some long forgotten experiences and feelings. This one talks about regret. But this one, I feel I could send it to someone else to read and think about me 😉

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    1. Suchita Avatar
      Suchita

      Awe that is such high praise! Thanks so much Anupriya ❤

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  6. Jyoti Jha Avatar
    Jyoti Jha

    Such thoughtful words! Beautifully penned and so relatable for many relationships in life.

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    1. Suchita Avatar
      Suchita

      So glad you enjoyed reading it Jyoti.

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  7. Dashy Avatar
    Dashy

    Forgiveness is possible only with much love. Beautiful lines.

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    1. Suchita Avatar
      Suchita

      Thanks Darshana.

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  8. Amrita Avatar
    Amrita

    Interesting poem Suchita.We can all be kind ,that’s true.

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    1. Suchita Avatar
      Suchita

      Thanks Amrita. Kindness is never overrated.

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  9. soniadogra Avatar
    soniadogra

    Regret without change is just manipulation. So I hope forgiveness and change both find a common home here.

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    1. Suchita Avatar
      Suchita

      Exactly. As long as there is positive action, there is hope of improvement.

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  10. Kikibee Avatar
    Kikibee

    Only a person with much humility, chances are given second time

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    1. Suchita Avatar
      Suchita

      Well humans are flawed. If they are making active choices, they deserve more chances. That’s my take 🙂

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  11. Meena Avatar
    Meena

    I hope it is not too late either. But in all likeliness it is! 😦

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    1. Suchita Avatar
      Suchita

      There is always hope 🙂

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  12. Dipali Bhasin Avatar
    Dipali Bhasin

    A poem of regret and the hope that all amends will be made – a nice poem, Suchita!

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    1. Suchita Avatar
      Suchita

      Thanks Dipali 🙂

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